THE BEST DAD ON EARTH......!!!

Actually this was not what I wanted to blog today.. I held an extremely diff notion of my postings today….but… things changed on its ways. Thoughts seemed less significant than feelings.. as, the former can be hidden but not the latter.. They burst out in one way or the other…

I was very much well within myself until that second when my mobile started crawling over the table singing the song ‘final countdown’.. I just peeped over the screen to find the person on it.. Hurray..!! it was my dad.. My most loving person on earth..

I flipped open with hell a lot of enthusiasm and spirit. We started off with a good note and shared things, had laughs and were just on… Everything was fine until the enquiry was on the problems that I usually make.. I never wanted to be a starter but it all falls to me... I found the change in the voice of the person on the other side. The usual tone got disrupted…the pitch got modified to a bit more authoritative... It all went on for few revolutions of the minute hand...

I still don’t find a single reason to prove that my dad’s anger was wrong... He was right in every possible sense...Actually, reality says that I am not me.. I’m really not the person whom I seem to be. I live a world of undercover life… To be more precise, I’m aberrant… I liked to try anything and everything... My idea of life was ‘never to leave anything unknown, or untouched in life... I had an unquenchable thirst for everything exciting in life...

Though the world never accepts this way of life…. but one thing that takes me to a secure habitat is that, the world sees only the outer person and not the inner ‘me’... This is what which makes most of them a perfect gentleman/woman…But we always forget to come to the limelight and realize that they are not what they seem to be...

Huh… wait a minute.. I have been a long way from what I was actually saying.. Anyway, let me roll back. The kind of life that I was living, created me to be irresponsible and not worthwhile.. I always took life as it came to me, never realizing the need of the moment..This did not sound satisfactorily pleasing my dad.. He always wanted his son to be a savant, more sapient, more logical and more of everything good.. Anyway.. I turned out to be more and more of his dislikes..

These conversations were getting hard over the telecommunication lines.. I live miles away from my dad…and this is the reason why I never got myself screwed off.. Anyway… things got a little fizzy and I dropped into a moody state and just naturally the conversation ended as it could.. Though my real ‘me’ is a person with a lot of energy to enjoy things, he was never a bad person indeed.. Though I seemed rough, was childish within...My thoughts started wandering... They ran all over my head to my spine.. The very thought that I have made my dad unhappy, started killing me... Literally petrified, I was flooded with tears that were almost continuous..

Typically laying down on my bed in the grey silence of my mind, suddenly found my mobile again crawling over my chest. It was my dad again. I opened my speech with a dull ‘hello’, not as enthusiastic as the previous one… One new aspect I discovered was a tremble in his voice... Dropping still more keen into it, I was confirmed and had to accept that he was also under the same feeling… actually, a lot more than mine.. Exactly, my mind lacked words to converse with... Had a feeling as I was not used to speaking before… and like no language was known to me... I was as dumb as I could be….

My Dad said…Son, Never feel that dad has been harsh on you... It’s all because….. I LOVE ‘YOU’ ABOVE ANYTHING ELSE...

I just burst out into a pool of tears, unable to bring myself to a point of acceptance that I am loved so much yet knowing for sure that I am no way worthy….

This may seem a totally absurd text for the onlookers... Yea... You are right when you consider it to be a text alone... Realization of the reality is possible only when considered as feelings.. Parents are the greatest assets of anyone... They live to love us... As my dad, writing on my mom would again take unnumbered pages more... She is God in reality, a heart that never hurts...

Understanding all these, I understood that fulfilling their dreams, auto direct us to our dreams... Now I just learnt to keep them at the first place and tend to move toward it...Just two sentences of my dad taught me so much...It made me accept the reality and understand life to the brim…

“MY DAD IS THE BEST DAD ON EARTH”… “MY PRICELESS POSSESSION”